Secrets

So I admit

I fucked it up

I never told you

How I love

Secrets 

Defense

Journals and quotes

I draw a picture

In my mind

It falls apart

In real life

Inhale

Exhale

Mirrors and smoke

I smoke to think

I drink to laugh

I sleep to keep

The peace I have

Evenings 

Dreaming

Pedals and boats

A rarer thing

Than truth is found

In love when measured

Knows no bounds

Self-fulfilling

Glass half-full mentality

For prophecies self-fulfilled

But you knew before the secrets

Or the seed were ever spilled

Small scale delusions

Put a restless mind at ease

Former flames just fade away

Like embers in the breeze

A tragic trick of memory

Or a passive act of war

If feelings are so fleeting

What are feelings really for

Another effort ended

A new pursuit to pass the time

Until the monkeysphere is full

And everyone new is left behind

Evening

Charred beneath the grill lines in the star streaked summer sky
A yellow grass is crushed beneath our dancing calloused feet
From the west your better judgement will chase in a storm tonight
For now the twilight, bandstand, and the crickets all share in our heat

For months my whispers filled your hair like air into your lungs
Former lovers fill your mind like they did when you were young
Black and green, the shade of evening, shrouds our steady spin
A warmer breeze puts you at ease and you are in my arms again

Falling girl in white and flowers, finding clovers in scorched lawn
Knees and elbows, goodbyes and hellos, charades perfected long ago
Kisses steal breaths, inhibitions fade into the setting sun
Ennui gives way, in weeds we lay, and dormant feelings grow

Skin and fingertips and nods, sighs and raindrops and goosebumps
Gentle hand upon my chest and with no effort pull you up
Calloused feet retreat, start running as the temperature begins to drop
And suddenly the rain is falling, you grab my hand and we both stop